During a segment on NBC’s hit afternoon show, “Ellen,” an emotional Ronda Rousey told host Ellen DeGeneres that she contemplated suicide after her November loss to Holly Holm at UFC 193 for the UFC Bantamweight Championship.

Rousey appeared on the show to promote her Sports Illustrated swimsuit cover. This appearance is really the first time she’s talked at length about that night and what she was feeling.

Here’s a video of that segment:

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